Sit in his holy presence and ask him, he will talk to you

Even though I have been born and raised in a Pentecostal family, I took time to know the Lord. Every time I was in deep shit he pulled me out and I have never thanked him enough of his love. My life has been tested in so many ways from childhood till now and sometimes I am so busy looking at the result that I don't think I have sat back to think where I was and how God helped me out. I feel so selfish at times because I only think of him when I am in trouble, I am too busy doing my worldly things. Today as I sit and pray and poured out my heart in tongues, he showed me what plans he has for me and my family. He showed me my kid my husband a congregation and how our lives are going to be a blessing to others. We plan our lives as per our convinience but God has bigger and better plans, here I am praying to God everyday for my admission in masters so that I can move to USA and do something good for the family but I am also worried about my finances, but I believe if its the will of God I will get it and in the right time he will provide me the finances I need. The word of encouragement he gave made me happy making me realise that you don't need someone else to tell you what God has planned for you. You just need to sit in his presence and ask him that what he wants us to be, he will show you, he will guide you. I was listening to the praise and worship songs in the youtube and this song came up which has the words that he is our strength, our shield and our deliverer. He is that, without the bible where would be all be. We have the best words of encouragement with us and at times we are so buy looking in our smartphone that we ignore it completely. When was the last time you actually sat in the presence of the Lord and a private time with him, poured out your heart cried out saying what you feel, why everything is so messed up. If you haven't then today do it, it will bring a change in your life. You will be more proud of yourselves. What is more joyful than having a wonderful time with your Heavenly Dad, who constantly has your back no matter what. Be encouraged with word and may this be change you needed

God bless you 

I emotionally broke down and poured my heart out and he answered me

Being a married woman and a working wife is not easy, we may consider that everything is going so well in our lives that we forget that no matter how much you consider yourself as a true christian Satan does knows when to get on your nerves. I thought I could handle it but seeing the small problems happening in my married life made me worried because someone had prophecised that I may start having some issues in my marriage which may lead to do divorce, I did not take it seriously. I thought what could go wrong. Slowly slowly my husband who is a pastor started losing interest in his prayers, household responsibility and this slowly started pissing me off. As a wife I used to think a man should lead the family but I was wrong, I could see how small details started making me worry. I really love my guy and I know God has big plans for him. But if we do not ask God to be a part of our daily lives he will be hurt, during this emotional turmoil, I remembered one of the preachings of one of the guest pastors at our church saying that our heavenly father is someone who wants to be part of our daily lives. He wants to know what we are feeling. Its only selfish that we keep asking him and not give him back. He wants to know each and every details of our lives because he looks out for us and loves us unconditionally. And what we do in return take this love for granted. Today I broke down and poured my heart saying that I can't handle all this and am really sorry for not being a good daughter. I cried my heart out saying that I miss talking talking to my father who is in heaven, I was desperate to talk to him, hear his word because his word would give me the assurance that he is there, he has not left me abandoned, that assurance is all we need, while I was praying he gave me the words from Psalms 37:7-9 which encouraged me so well because it was all about the patience and hope I was asking for. Our God works in our lives in the miraculous ways and we need to thank him for every small work he does in our lives


God bless you

Your prayer should be your comfort

There has been so many times I have forgotten to pray or spend a quality time with God. This ended up effecting me spiritually and emotionally. I was thinking I never forget to talk to my parents in laws husband even long lost friends, but why am I not talking to God. The bible states that our father is a loving yet a possessive father, he is possessive in a way where he seeks out attention of our love our time, can't we give him that, this is not the kind of love he deserves, sometimes we do things where we become unworthy of the love he has for us. Yet in so many ways he forgives us, there has been ways that I have kept hurting him. I end up questioning him up so much for all the the bad things happening in my life, I forget that its happening so that I can get connected back to him, I forget that he has bigger plans. I always keep on asking him that I want this, I want that but am I giving him back anything. While writing this my mind wanders away to the thoughts of how my father has been a wonderful guide and a comforter, he has been with me, he healed me when I was completely broken, he pulled me out of the dungeons of darkness and set me free, he comforted me when satan had put suicidal thoughts and tore me apart, and this is how I return his love for me. What kind of child have I become that my father is being hurt because of my atrocious behaviour, he doesn't deserve all this, he deserves way more better things. I am happy he has kept me safe and sound in the midst of all the troubles. I thank him for letting me see a new morning and giving me the physical strength to work. This is the kind of love and respect he deserves


God bless you