Stop letting down others when you have not figured out yourself

I have always thought that kids who have been raised in a christian household have strong value for their faith, little did I know it was the mask which was covering up or their hypocrite nature or the type of nature which normally people would not like to possess

I was born and raised in a Pentecostal household, which does not mean I was born all spiritual and already knew the lord, I would regularly go to the church attend Sunday school, and all that, I studied in a school which  was run by Catholic nuns and most of my friends were non believers, but we had a good life, both my Besties are Hindus and it doesn't mean we do not have our difference of opinions, but we are very transparent about it with each other, I was very influenced with friends from my school and always loved the company as I was the only child and my parents were both working, we were not very financially stable but God helped us and provided us,during my growing years I came to know the Lord and his love, there had been marry tragedies in life but he kept me calm, there has been times that I have burst open my heart out to him and cried, I have always been a very observant person and the various incidents in life has made me very calm and empathetic to others, I had raging anger towards things that happened in my life and always kept blaming my parents for it, now when I see it I feel that I had to go through all that so that I can be helping hand to others

In my college I left my home and went to a new city, where I met people from my community and that is how I met many other Pentecostal youth, I thought they are very nice and spiritual, does praise and worship, but all that was just a cover , because some of them were so judgemental and hypocrite about things that it really hurt me, my ex bf was one of them and slowly slowly I moved away because it made me feel that I rather be along than be with people who were so fake in front of others,

I thought all that was all momentary but in my new workplace I met this person who in spite being the child of missionaries have such a bleak spiritual soul, she shows of that she is a spiritual person putting down others at work. She butters up to neck so that she is in a good image in front of her colleagues

All these made me think is that who are we to be like that, am I that perfect that I can put down others. Did Jesus tell us to share his good news only with ones with a status ? No he came for all rich and poor, old and child , sick and the needy, we are all his children, so are we suppose to put others down in this way? No right ? My heart really aches when I see people doing such acts, there are many people I want to know the real God and have faith in him, such acts just shrugs them away, they go back into their shell of darkness. This is just the example of the things I see around me, I am sure when you read this you can relate to such incidents to, all we can do is join in prayer for our loved ones to be save so that one day they are with us glorifying the Father

Please do write to me your prayer requests so that we can pray for each other and be a blessing to one another through the virtual world 


God Bless

A personal prayer to comfort my heart and thank him

Our heavenly gracious Father, Thank you for enabling me to see a wonderful new morning. Thank for helping me sleep peacefully. Thank you Lord for all the wonders you have done for me. Thank you for the wonderful family you gave me, and keeping them safe and sound in your presence. Thank you for the wonderful partner you have given me, bless him and keep him strengthened in your presence, thank you for helping me grow in your presence with him, Thank you for my wonderful in laws, they are blessing in my life. Keep them in good health. Thank you for my wonderful friends and relatives, bless them abundantly, heal them if any of them are in sickness, strengthen them mightily. Lord thank you for the congregation I go to, Bless the pastor and his family. Bless his ministry and all the members of the church, Let the word he speaks touch our souls that we may ponder in his word. Thank you for providing me the shelter and food for everyday. You know my needs more than I know myself. You know my heart, father we may plan our lives but Father you determine our steps. You have been there for me even when I moved away from you presence. The worldly joy had blinded me in its beauty and entangled me in various sins, I thought I went way far to come back to you, but Father you never gave up on me. And that is what that keeps me going because of your faith in me, I know I haven't been the best child to you, have hurt you so many times that I can count for, Yet you never stopped loving me. You gave me joy and assurance that you have my back. You pushed back my enemies when they tried to pull me down and drag me along with them. In times of trouble only I thought of you, otherwise I have been way to busy with my life. Thank you father for keeping up with me. Thank you for the wonderful oppurtunities you have brought in my life and I cannot stop praising your name
Once again I submit everything in your presence and In your sweet loving name

Amen

Sometimes we might not see our mistakes that we are doing in our spiritual life

Laziness can come into anybody's life, but sometimes we don't realize that it can extend till our daily spiritual lives too. We may think that we are praying everyday and reading the bible but then when there is no passion, when its more of the daily scheduled thing which you are used to do, like having medicine. We do forget that prayer is not a daily chore, its the quality time we need to spend with our heavenly father. We may not forget to do the earthly daily chores, but what about the spiritual time we need to invest for the betterment of the future, We are so busy in developing things for our lives in earth that we are not storing the riches in heaven. Our daily problem have taken over our minds that in our prayer time also we see that. Nobody in this world is happy with the things we have in our lives, we always want more than we can have. When was the last time we were actually happy about things in our lives When was the last time have you appreciated for all the goodness you have. We may not see all the goodness around  us, but its really important to thank our Father for what we have. Have you sat and thought the ways you are doing the mistakes in your lives? You might not be physically doing anything wrong, but in our minds we might be doing so many wrong things that we may not even realise it, be it anger, jealousy, loathing, greed, envy to name a few. I would not blame you though because we all have been there done that. Stop judging each other and give a shoulder to be comforted. We can all use a friend. Be that friend who can give you a company for your prayer. Be a prayer warrior and support each other. Stop pointing out the mistakes of others. Sit in his presence with fasting and prayer and ask him to talk to you, he will give your ears. You don't need someone else coming and telling you what God is trying to tell you. Spend your time to know here you have gone wrong and ask for forgiveness. Its a hard thing but he loves us more than anything in the world. Do not lose out the oppurtunity he is giving you, it might be too late then. We are a family and we need to support each other


God Bless You

Sit in his holy presence and ask him, he will talk to you

Even though I have been born and raised in a Pentecostal family, I took time to know the Lord. Every time I was in deep shit he pulled me out and I have never thanked him enough of his love. My life has been tested in so many ways from childhood till now and sometimes I am so busy looking at the result that I don't think I have sat back to think where I was and how God helped me out. I feel so selfish at times because I only think of him when I am in trouble, I am too busy doing my worldly things. Today as I sit and pray and poured out my heart in tongues, he showed me what plans he has for me and my family. He showed me my kid my husband a congregation and how our lives are going to be a blessing to others. We plan our lives as per our convinience but God has bigger and better plans, here I am praying to God everyday for my admission in masters so that I can move to USA and do something good for the family but I am also worried about my finances, but I believe if its the will of God I will get it and in the right time he will provide me the finances I need. The word of encouragement he gave made me happy making me realise that you don't need someone else to tell you what God has planned for you. You just need to sit in his presence and ask him that what he wants us to be, he will show you, he will guide you. I was listening to the praise and worship songs in the youtube and this song came up which has the words that he is our strength, our shield and our deliverer. He is that, without the bible where would be all be. We have the best words of encouragement with us and at times we are so buy looking in our smartphone that we ignore it completely. When was the last time you actually sat in the presence of the Lord and a private time with him, poured out your heart cried out saying what you feel, why everything is so messed up. If you haven't then today do it, it will bring a change in your life. You will be more proud of yourselves. What is more joyful than having a wonderful time with your Heavenly Dad, who constantly has your back no matter what. Be encouraged with word and may this be change you needed

God bless you 

I emotionally broke down and poured my heart out and he answered me

Being a married woman and a working wife is not easy, we may consider that everything is going so well in our lives that we forget that no matter how much you consider yourself as a true christian Satan does knows when to get on your nerves. I thought I could handle it but seeing the small problems happening in my married life made me worried because someone had prophecised that I may start having some issues in my marriage which may lead to do divorce, I did not take it seriously. I thought what could go wrong. Slowly slowly my husband who is a pastor started losing interest in his prayers, household responsibility and this slowly started pissing me off. As a wife I used to think a man should lead the family but I was wrong, I could see how small details started making me worry. I really love my guy and I know God has big plans for him. But if we do not ask God to be a part of our daily lives he will be hurt, during this emotional turmoil, I remembered one of the preachings of one of the guest pastors at our church saying that our heavenly father is someone who wants to be part of our daily lives. He wants to know what we are feeling. Its only selfish that we keep asking him and not give him back. He wants to know each and every details of our lives because he looks out for us and loves us unconditionally. And what we do in return take this love for granted. Today I broke down and poured my heart saying that I can't handle all this and am really sorry for not being a good daughter. I cried my heart out saying that I miss talking talking to my father who is in heaven, I was desperate to talk to him, hear his word because his word would give me the assurance that he is there, he has not left me abandoned, that assurance is all we need, while I was praying he gave me the words from Psalms 37:7-9 which encouraged me so well because it was all about the patience and hope I was asking for. Our God works in our lives in the miraculous ways and we need to thank him for every small work he does in our lives


God bless you

Your prayer should be your comfort

There has been so many times I have forgotten to pray or spend a quality time with God. This ended up effecting me spiritually and emotionally. I was thinking I never forget to talk to my parents in laws husband even long lost friends, but why am I not talking to God. The bible states that our father is a loving yet a possessive father, he is possessive in a way where he seeks out attention of our love our time, can't we give him that, this is not the kind of love he deserves, sometimes we do things where we become unworthy of the love he has for us. Yet in so many ways he forgives us, there has been ways that I have kept hurting him. I end up questioning him up so much for all the the bad things happening in my life, I forget that its happening so that I can get connected back to him, I forget that he has bigger plans. I always keep on asking him that I want this, I want that but am I giving him back anything. While writing this my mind wanders away to the thoughts of how my father has been a wonderful guide and a comforter, he has been with me, he healed me when I was completely broken, he pulled me out of the dungeons of darkness and set me free, he comforted me when satan had put suicidal thoughts and tore me apart, and this is how I return his love for me. What kind of child have I become that my father is being hurt because of my atrocious behaviour, he doesn't deserve all this, he deserves way more better things. I am happy he has kept me safe and sound in the midst of all the troubles. I thank him for letting me see a new morning and giving me the physical strength to work. This is the kind of love and respect he deserves


God bless you

I want the word to be my inspiration not the people I see around me

Last Sunday when I was at church and I was hearing the preaching about how God wants to talk to us. It made me wonder that have I ever wondered that God likes to have conversations with us. When we read the book of Genesis we can see that when God created man and woman,he used to come down to the Garden of Eden to walk with them or talk to them. We don't see this happening now because the darkness of the world has covered us up so much that we Christians are so busy in our lives that we do not have time to respond to him. If you read my other blogs you can see that how frustrated I am actually that I am not able to make the connection with my father because of my lifestyle. I don't remember the day when I followed the fasting properly. I want my connection back with God. I want him to be there for me no matter how far I am. Sometimes I believe I am too lazy in my life so I don't like to make efforts for the lost time. God has pulled me out of the miry clay and molded me in a way he wanted me to be. But my earthly lifestyle has taken over the structure so much that,I rather do Whatsapp or Facebook than pray. Is that the kind of impression I wanna give people when I say the gospel to them. I don't like judging people in general but if I am not a good Christian then what kind of person I am. What am I even doing in my life. I should stop looking up to others but look up to God who knew me before I was in my mother's womb. He knew what I would be in the future. He has greater things planned for me rather than me planning it all by myself. God'd love is greater and mightier than anything. Make time to sit and meditate what God has to tell you rather than you focusing on what others have to say to you or think about you


GOD BLESS !!!